Several therapists over the years told me that my emotions had been suppressed in order to survive my childhood, and I had been diagnosed with PTSD and been on and off of antidepressants. The intensity of my emotions when I would be in emotional pain would scare me, and scare my family members at times. I learned not to be around them when I was upset.
Nothing discussed or done with these therapists worked, including CBT, EMDR and some DBT.
I tried many years of therapy, eventually leading to meditation, acupuncture, crystal work, psychic reading after psychic reading; I even did an ancestral clearing and experimented with past life regression. I was so desperate to find a way to improve my life, and in the process I gave all my personal power away, believing that all of these things outside of myself could perhaps heal me or take my pain away, going from one thing to the next when it didn’t work in the end. And when it came to psychics, there was always another one to try, and it became a very expensive crutch that I was also very ashamed of. I knew feeling melancholy like that most of the time wasn’t a healthy condition. But nothing worked for longer than the short term.
What I didn’t realize at the time when I signed up with Steve for his Ptsen-Nuh (PN) course was that I accidentally gave myself the biggest gift. Today, I am happy and I have found peace, and most of all I almost exclusively rely on myself to get me through the more difficult emotions. I still experience sadness, and loneliness at times — BUT — ( huge but ) — I am much more able to recognize and go into the emotion, let it pass, and basically enjoy life a much larger percentage of the time. I am way less reactive, and have become empowered to choose my reaction in most situations – just as advertised! (giggle) And at least in my case, a big part of attaining emotional freedom was learning to recognize and express what anger is.
I didn’t intend to go back to therapy after working with Steve however I did for a short time – but what I noticed this time about therapy was, I really didn’t need it. I didn’t need to talk about or heavily process any of what had happened with anyone else. The old me would have tried to think my way through it, – which – hasn’t worked, ever, in my 32 years; at least not if the goal was to feel differently, less sad, frustrated, angry. Now, I could do that all by myself. Seeing how unnecessary it was, I ended therapy shortly thereafter.
The ability to manage my energy and emotions, has enabled me to have a much, much closer, personal relationship with God. He is my compass, and before Steve with all the emotional turbulence I could never get to that still, calm center where I can hear His voice. This alone is invaluable. Today, I have my moments as I am human, but I am mostly a happy, balanced individual, and I owe that largely to this course.
Finally, if you are reading this, and if you’re skeptical of whether this course is for you – I was, too. The previous version of me could sometimes be extremely stubborn, and if Steve can get through to me, he can get through to you. You don’t have to suffer, if you are suffering. You just need the right tools — unfortunately, most people won’t sell you tools that will set you up for the rest of your life. Whether they realize it or not, most practitioners are selling you a form of dependency. You don’t need anyone, or anything, outside yourself, to be happy — and you certainly don’t have to live at the mercy of your emotions! I highly recommend you commit to, and do the course. It might just change your every day!